I woke up feeling pretty good. I had my outfit picked out (something I could never wear to work – denim skirt, leggings and a leopard print camisole), and was excited to be going off to get my next tattoo today. I showered and dressed, and realised I had a little bit of time up my sleeve, so I jumped online and went to my Facebook page. Unfortunately, the first thing I saw was a post that was intended innocently by the friend who posted it, but was actually a big ole pile of fat hatred. Even though it was posted in good spirit, it was painfully clear that the person who made the meme (one of those Demotivational posters) was being hateful and pushing more fat stereotypes (the junk food loving gluttonous fatty) and some of the comments were of very bad taste.
I was so hurt. I plummeted into a spiral of self loathing and shame. It took every ounce of my intestinal fortitude not to cancel my tattoo appointment and go back to bed. Then it took every ounce of my willpower to not change my outfit and cover my body, to stay in the outfit that bares my fat arms and shoulders, that is visible.
But I did the old “fake it until you make it” and set out for the day. I’m so glad I did. Wanna see my outfit? (Click here for outfit details) Here you go:
I’m fresh out of the tattooist chair, their apprentice took the photo for me. There’s nothing like the adrenaline high after a tattoo to lift your mood. I went from hating myself to feeling amazing in the time it took my tattoo artist, Victoria (from Wild at Heart Tattoo in Charlotte Street) to do the piece.
The piece is very significant too. I know you want to see it. But I’m going to tell you about it first, before I unleash it. It’s a piece that Victoria and I designed, inspired by the art of Rubens Cantuni, a fabulous artist from Genova in Italy. He does these pieces called Tokyo Candies that I fell deeply in love with a little while ago, after seeing some of his sexy fat lady artworks pop up on Tumblr. (Rubens is on Twitter and Facebook if you’d like to follow him too.) I saw this picture over a year ago and absolutely loved it, but it was seeing this one on Tumblr about a month ago that made me decide I absolutely HAD to have a tattoo piece inspired by his work.
I took a bunch of his work to Victoria and between us we came up with a design that was just perfect. Not only is she beautifully fat positive, but it’s a celebration of the things I love about myself too. I only have to look at her to be reminded of the things that I feel good about myself.
Yeah yeah, I know, you just want to see the damn tattoo. Well here she is…
See, I told you she was beautiful.